The Sand Hill Review            http://www.sandhillreview.org        2001 November

 

To the Beauty of the Smallest Action

 

It is so intractable: how can it delight?

And so parsimonious with what of insight

it will allow, you might well call it the small god

of the Universe--not the One raised up a clod

and with zephyr breath blew life and shape and strange mind

into the cave dwelling likes of you and me. Blind

then and blind now (though less or more is hard to say),

we’re teased by this little box of a god at play.

 

But how deeply in we may peer along one line

if we concede the rest to blindness: a half-sign

then of all the inner workings, though half with half

in reconstruction never makes the whole. The math

has taught us that, which where like truth the beauty lies

beyond the senses. Thus we take pure thought for eyes

and learn the marvelous working out of strange things.

Yet for me, still it fails the flight of earth-bound wings.

 

And so I fail, holding to this provincial love

of what the senses make. Nothing outside, above

the local realm. Sight and sound, smell and touch and taste

the touchstones. All else seems to be invention’s chaste

beauty, a thing of second order and unfelt...

but what of the leafy bower? A poet dwelt

there once who spun his light and beauty moved. He thought

it truth. What then of what his moving hand had wrought?

 

No flight of fancy flies free of its gravity

nor rides the nothingness. Wings will fit to a tee

the rules of lift set out for them or else all falls--

like that poor son foundering within the sea’s blue walls.

And the others of vision, wanting the unbound,

the wild loosening, sweet outlaw minds that confound

at first established order with their faux disorder--

do they not subside, in the many-folded border?

 

Even the sea of nothingness is seething now.

What was the emptiness in thought revealed the how

of being, once our measure took uncertainty

to itself--from which that ceaseless activity

of the virtual and that which lifts it to the real:

By opposites, paired entities arise. They steal

from the zeros for a while but soon together die--

unless, like poetry’s wreathed leaves of laurel, they vie

 

and win that ordaining touch of the primal fire.

Then the debt of existence is paid. And the lyre

of bygone days that lifts with its whisper mere words

toward the upper realms and calls down the song birds,

which weaves still the ancient round of fair & bitter leaves

and culls among contending texts--what of that these

days when small truth is freed by chance, its ghost-life shorn

in fire, when one for one the nemesis is born?

 

So is it the little god has taken up hiding

inside the new strangeness of words or to confiding

a few secrets in the calculus of the smallest

world inquiring mind can travel to? And who callest

out to thee in the bower of number and measure,

save the sons and daughters of the poets? The treasure

shimmers now well beyond what song alone can transduce--

are not these makers of a mathematics of some use?

 

For they bring back in a language more difficult

than any invention of the textualist’s cult

something protean and beautiful: infinity

borne on the infinitesimal’s divinity.

And there is law to it. The language is not free

to deconstruct on some slippery knowledge. This tree

flows out from itself like the cycles of the dance.

As for truth, that’s the sweet ongoing ignorance.

 

David Cummings