The Sand Hill Review          http://www.sandhillreview.org       2001 November

 

Once

 

Once I was a girl who dug tunnels to China. 

Once I climbed a hill covered in black velvet. 

Once I was a lion standing at the intersection waiting for the light to change.

Once I was lost in my own bed.

Once I was struck by lightning; the distance between my head and my heart shortened.

Once I made a necklace from my father’s amber worry beads.

Once I believed in keeping the peace in the house at any price.

Once I was a corpse in my own bed.

Once I bought a watch with a loose, dancing 6.

Once my long hair crept under the windowsill and turned into a sunflower.

Once I shook for an hour.

Once I boiled a teaspoon of cinnamon in a cup of water to mask the odor in my house.

Once I clutched a bunch of yellow roses and leaped across a chasm.

Once I rummaged through a garbage can to find an envelope, I was insane.

Once I lived in the house of seamless floors and breathing carpets.

Once I was tethered to my life holding a baby in my arms, I was grateful

 

Esther Kamkar